I have a digital scale. I love that it’s digital, and I hate that it’s digital. I trust it and feel like it’s accurate. But I can’t blame a sudden weight jump on a faulty mechanism anymore. No more leaning from side to side, from heel to toe, trying to get the needle to slip backwards. Nope. I get a digital read out of my weight, with accompanying body fat percentage.
I’m not due to have my monthly cry yet, so I won’t talk about the body fat percentage aspect of things right now. Possibly not ever.
Anyway, I feel like I should record what’s going on with my lifestyle change, just to make it seem more real. The day to day changes I make in my life seem more solid, more actual, once I’ve put them into words. Even more so when I’ve posted them on the internet where anyone and everyone can read them. I’ve stopped recording my water intake, because there’s no real point. I hit my goal or above it every day. I think it’s time for a new goal, but I’m hesitant to set one. I really mastered the water thing, and that’s thrilling for me. I’m worried that my next goal won’t be accomplished so easily, and what if failing at it sends me into the downward spiral again?
I’m losing weight very slowly. We’ve had a lot of houseguests lately, and I’ve been using them as excuses to binge. I can’t bake for my guests without eating some too, can I? I know the right answer to that question, but as I’m a master of self-delusion, the pounds aren’t coming off as quickly as they could. But I was 212 in January, and 203 in June, and 197 when I started here at Spark People. And I’m 195 now. Come on people, where’s the confetti and balloons? 195! That’s official pre-Becca weight! My next mini-goal is to get down to 180, my pre-Emma weight. I’m hoping to achieve that by Halloween.
I’m trying to keep the excitement I felt when the scale blipped the number 195 at me. I want to hold onto that feeling and savour it, to help me through the rough temptation-laden times. Like tonight. I’m attending a baby-shower, and have been advised that nanaimo bars and cream puffs are being served. Umm. Help?
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*Throws confetti and releases a dozen helium-filled balloons*
I think you’re doing great! I still haven’t mastered the water thing, but I’m more conscious of it and am doing not-too-awfully. Whenever I think about drinking more water, I think of you and your sticker chart! I need to make one for me, I guess.
I don’t own a scale (don’t wanna be reminded that I weigh more than my husband), but it seems really, really tough to lose weight! Maintain it, okay, but lose it — yeah. It’s not really something that comes by accident; it takes TONS of willpower. But you’ve done it so far, and even with company over it sounds like you’ve been doing okay! Keep going! You can do it!!
*joins in confetti-throwing/balloon-releasing fun with Beth*
YAY FOR YOU!!!!! You’re doing awesome!
As far as the nanaimo bars/cream puffs . . . have a tiny bar and one cream puff . . . that way you partake and enjoy but do not overdo! :)
That is really, really great! I’m so happy for you! What a lot that is to lose and keep off!
I think it helps to give yourself a treat sometimes, so you don’t feel deprived. I can’t cold-turkey anything and feel happy about it.
I really want a digital scale now – our scale’s little needle broke off a little and I can’t tell exactly what it’s pointing at.
I’m the exact same weight! Let’s be losers together.
If I lose a pound a year, I’ll be at my goal weight by the time I’m 55. Is that too lofty of a goal? Be honest wtih me.
Congratulations! I ban scales from my house. Why do they have to serve such yummy and horrid things at every party? Sheesh! We can hardly get through a month around here without some serious temptation!