Temporary? Insanity

So I’m sitting down to write up a post about nothing in particular. I set a goal to blog every other day and by golly, I’m going to do it! Even if I’m so lacking in inspiration that I use phrases like “by golly.”

Life is pretty happy right now. I’ve taken Smart Habit Saturday very much to heart and, not content with adding one habit per week, I’ve been sneaking all sorts of new habits into my daily routine. This week I added making the bed every morning, laying out the girls pj’s and clothes for the next day in the afternoon, setting the table for breakfast before going to bed, and washing my face morning and night (no more collapsing in bed with my make-up still on!).

I feel like I need to take a deep breath after sharing that list. They’re pretty small things, but they’re adding up to a lot of happiness. And having these small things under control is helping me tackle the larger projects. I cleaned out the fridge last night. And this morning I scrubbed the kitchen floor. I’ve been getting the dishes done immediately after a meal instead of waiting for hours and having to go at them with a hammer and chisel to get the hardened food off. I’ve cleaned out drawers and organized paperwork. Next thing you know I’ll actually start answering e-mails! Good heavens!

I like to say that I’m turning over a new leaf but that it’s very heavy. Lately though, it doesn’t feel quite so heavy. Taking small reasonable steps towards my goal of being super-mom/wife/friend, etc…has been an eye-opening experience. It’s frightening and joyful all in the same moment. With hope comes the fear of despair.

I’m afraid that the happiness I’m currently feeling is transitory. I’m so lazy by nature, that it’s equally natural to suppose I’ll slip right back into my procrastinatory ways at any moment.

But then I think, what the heck, enjoy the happiness and ignore the feeling of impending doom!