Vague ideas are taking shape. Breathing is deeper. I feel functional and hopeful.
And apparently inclined to be rather melodramatic. Ah well. Why fight it?
Honestly, I feel ensnared by this hulk of a thing sitting in front of me. I keep finding excuses to come back to it. Pictures to edit and organize. Templates to create. Music to find and playlists to form.
A good friend left a comment that struck me rather forcibly. It brought home the fact that I don’t have to blog every day. I don’t have to commit hours to blog reading and responding to comments. I don’t have to. This can be a part time thing. A hobby. A dibble-dabble sort of affair.
Admittedly, I’m not good at dabbling. I’m too much an all or nothing sort of person. I even found it hard to sit down to write this post. I’m not ready to come back, I told myself. And then laughed. What? I write one post and suddenly I’m back, full fledged blogger once more? As if Thursday’s crash never happened?
Not quite.
But I will be back. In a week or two. I’ll move house. I’ll tame the chaos. I’ll slowly teach myself to seek more variety in my interests. Singleness of purpose is all very well and good in certain instances, but not this one. I need a fuller life than that.
I love you, my readers, very dearly. Thank you so much. Truly.
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Oh, blogging. It woos us back, even when we think we’re done with it.
I can relate!
I can’t quit you! (blogging)
I’m the same as you. All or nothing. Go hard or go home. I hope your move is easy and peaceful. I hope you find what you need. A good balance. And whenever you are ready for blogging, we’re ready for you. Love to you dear friend (because you really are a dear friend, you know…and it’s not weird).
I’ll be here…when you are ready. Sorry I was unable to respond to your email….down with the sickness….and easter and all that.
but I am so glad to “see” hanging in there.
hugs.
We love you tooo…..enjoy your time!
Good luck with the move! I am starting to feel much the same way… I’m learning a few things about myself. Such an interesting journey… and I love the look! I hope you keep it for awhile :)
I’ve been praying for you Kim. I hope that you find the peace you seek.
Great new look. Love it.
I totally agree with you, I’m obsessed with this blogging addiction. I really need to get a grip. I’m trying to slow down as we speak and I’m failing miserably.
We’ll enjoy you, even if it’s only once a week, or once every two weeks, or once a month… just don’t give it up entirely, okay?
Sounds like you are getting a handle on it. You take your time and take care of your family and come back here and there when you can and when it will be fun again and not something you feel that you have to do. Good luck with the move and I can’t wait to see some pictures of your new digs..so exciting. Love ya girl.
*HUGS* and love to you . . . email me sometime! :)
I’m so happy you’re feeling a bit better. I love and miss ya!
New look and new outlook. I likey Kim. I think you have gotten alot of us thinking about the balancing act of life. I think it is wonderful that you are taking control of the blogging instead of it taking control of you. We can get lost in this world and forget the outside world and what it has to offer. I think I will climb our local mountain this week. I feel the need and the inspiration is from you. Thanks Kim.
i think your good friend was wise in her advice. we all have to find the right balance in our individual lives. for you it might only be once or twice a week. you have to do what’s right for you. ((hugs))
I’m glad to see you back; I was worried! Now that you’re back, take another break if you feel you need to. ;-)
I wholeheartedly agree that you DON’T need to blog daily (you may have noticed this, har har). And rarely should you comment simply out of obligation (I say “rarely,” because sometimes I, as a blogger, feel like I just need to know WHO out there is reading. But every person that reads need not comment every time!)
Anyway. You are great. Glad you are feeling better.
no no no. wrong wrong wrong.
you must blog every day. two-three times. and they must all be thought provoking and/or entertaining. there should be exploits and incidents and photos infused with drama and/or laughter. otherwise, you are doing it wrong. and don’t love us. and … um… the world will end. and fire and brimstone will rain down like the fury that is the scorned blogiverse.
no?
*i’ve* got it wrong?
oh dang. not again.
Best wishes for the move and ‘taming the chaos.’ :)
It’s amazing how many bloggers are having these same types of experiences. I know I’m having one myself.
I love the new look. :) And I’ll read whenever you do decide to post.
I can’t help it! You’re writing is beautiful, and I wish I could write as well.
Good luck!!
Love,
Ally
“Tame the chaos.” That feels like me right now.
Good luck with everything … I can’t wait to have you back in the blogging world after your big move!
Take your time! You have a lot on your plate right now, and we’ll all be here whenever you’re ready to come back. We love you!
i’m so glad that you haven’t gone cold turkey on us. may you find peace in moderation!:) i am constantly making rules for myself (no blogging before noon. no blogging before i read the scriptures. no reading blogs or email before i’ve read to my kids. only use the computer between x and x hours each day,) rules which i constantly break. it’s all about finding the balance. good luck.
ah kim, keep taking care of you. find your peace and find your balance or find your balance and maybe in that you will find you peace. know that there are many out there to help and support you. you are a fabulous person and so creative – i don’t blame you for feeling the need for an outlet but remember to do it for yourself – you are the important one!
lots of happy thoughts your way as you make the move. hugs too – i know they are virtual but maybe neil or your girls can help make them real :O)
Dabbling is working for me; it can work for you, too!
You got it! Now go with it! I’ve found that by simply blogging with no agenda, only blogging when I really have something of worth to write and hopefully to read, has made my blog better. Truly nobody really cares the ins and outs of my everyday, so why write it? Plus, my family thanks me. (Right guys?) I’m the same as you in the all or nothing thing. I definitely felt that when I first committed to blogging. But I realized, I can still by all for it and not do it every day. I do the same thing with my photography and vide editing. The only thing I do every day is be a mother and a wife. Even being a sister and friend and daughter comes after. I loved the talk by Elder Oaks in the last conference about Good Better and Best. Their are lots of Good things we can do, but what is the Best. I try to do that now with all my decisions. (Not perfect, but trying!)
You will figure out a balance, it just takes some time…
You’ve got so much going on right now that it’s not surprising that you feel so overwhelmed.And when you add in the addictive qualities of the blog and your own non-dabbling personality (and I can say that because I’m the exact same way) it’s tricky to find a balance.
I know what you mean about the “blog personality” thing. It’s safe at the keyboard, and all within our own control. Stepping away from that is not easy.
Rest up. Spend some time on you. We’ll still be here.
Kim, it’s ok to step back. I’ve had to since my op because it’s all been a bit of a head mess too.
Blog when you want to. Read when you want to. We love you anyway, and we want you happy, ok? Good.
Oh I am so bossy.
Just remember Kim, You are marvelous. Marvelous in every way kind of marvelous. Jo has good advice. Read when you want, commment when you want, write when you want. And if you don’t want . . . then don’t. See how flexible we gentle readers are? You rock sis, wish I lived closer to help you pack and unpack boxes