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A Quick Catch Up
Posted by Kym1) I only have time/energy for point form.
2) Life is so good and so bad all in one moment.
3) Nano is going well. I’m having fun. Enjoying the camaraderie. Keeping up with my wordcount.
4) I’m piling on weight again. I am angry and I am sad. Chicka said it better than I can.
5) I’m feeling apathetic. I don’t want to post. I don’t want to read. I don’t want to answer my emails. I just want to sleep.
6) I would worry that I’m sinking into depression again but I know what that feels like. This? Is too little sleep and too much junk food talking.
7) Becca is talking exclusively in full sentences now and she makes sense more often than not. She’s turning three in January. That hit me really hard yesterday and I just about cried. I didn’t cry because I was playing the piano at church at the time.
8) The chicken stew I made for the potluck after church? Epic. Fail.
9) The kitchen I’ve kept clean for two weeks straight? Trashed.
10) The wedding reception I’ve been planning on attending to help my mom? Well, the thought of me traveling down is apparently more stressful than my help can balance out. I can’t decide whether to go or not.
11) I’m feeling too fat to go anyway.
12) I’m not letting myself go to bed till I’ve consumed a full gallon of water today. That’ll fix all the junk food damage, right?
13) I’m in I-want-to-throw-out-half-our-possessions-so-I-don’t-have-to-clean-them-up-anymore mode.
14) The TV is currently my daughters’ best friend. This must stop. I told them it was sick yesterday and we couldn’t turn it on and Emma hugged it and said, “Ohhhh…pooooor TV!” Yes. We have a problem.
15) The hideous pastel wallpaper is starting to get to me. Though I have nothing to replace it with, I’m tempted to claw it off with my bare hands. I have rage issues.
16) I’m not yearning to be pregnant anymore. I just want someone to hand me a baby and tell me it’s mine. My heart hurts. But I hate how mopey I get over this. I feel like I don’t have a right.
17) My life? Rocks. When I start whining like this, I feel like I should be smitten or something. Please. Someone smite me.
18) Fondue season is upon us. This makes me gleeful.
19) My Nano work in progress, while often quite ridiculous, is the most fun I’ve ever had writing.
20) Emma is old enough to be reasoned with. This makes life not easy, but certainly a lot less difficult.
21) My mother-in-law’s threat to come visit this month has not been made good on.
22) I keep having these awful nightmares which make real life look soooo good by comparison.
23) My ARC of James Dashner’s latest book just arrived. Wheeee!
24) Neil is finally talking about ripping out the ugly built in living room furniture as something to be done soon rather than five years from now.
25) I didn’t delete my blog in a fit of apathy this morning.
One heck of a sum up, eh? Life is bizarre right now. But good. Despite the bitter mixed in, it’s still very, very sweet.
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What a roller coaster, and yet you write.
I attend literary festivals, feel inspired and still hardly write anything.
Doh.
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Sorry everything is so crazy right now. When I’m feeling that way I usually tell my husband that “everything is stupid”. I don’t know why he puts up with my moodiness. I’m glad you didn’t erase your blog, that would have been very sad. :( I have been having the urge to throw away all of our stuff recently too, I’m glad it’s not just me. Hope everything is better tomorrow.
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I relate to so many of these, it’s scary! Except for fondue. I’m not a big fan. Unless chocolate can be fondue. Can it? I was under the impression that fondue is cheese, but I’ve heard people talk of chocolate fondue. Fondue. Fondue, fondue, fondue. It’s fun to say, at least. :)
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My gorgeous Kim. All will be well. Keep enjoying the writing. The girls will be fine to watch a little TV this month while mummy creates some fabulousness. The dishes can wait, the ironing can wait. It’s just one month of you time and if you’re enjoying the writing that is good. The baby thoughts will come again when you are ready. Love you. x
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I can relate. OH, boy, can I relate.
Keep it up, keep going, keep truckin’, all that stuff. We’re thinking of you.
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Something must be in there air, I swear. I’m feeling very similar right now, and I don’t even have NaNo to blame.
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Ooooo fondue season! That brings back memories of life while our husbands were in Optometry School. I was just telling a friend the other day about you guys’ holiday fondue parties. Last year they had one for R.S. - huge let down after attending a Vanderhorst event! Ever thought of moving down to Georgia??
Sounds like a roller coaster, all right. Sorry about all the sad. I know how it is, when the sad or even the mundane starts getting overwhelming, that the sweet parts get lost in it. *hugs*
But good job on NaNo (one of these years, I will be there with you) — you rock, you know that?
And don’t even *kid* about deleting your blog!! :-O
I felt like this a couple of weeks ago, for several weeks, but FINALLY came out of the funk about a week ago. Sorry your heart hurts. So does mine. Why don’t you have a right to feel that way?
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It doesn’t matter where you find joy, Kimberly. Fondue season works for me.
Take care of yourself.
I forgot what I was going to say after I read fondue season. Whoo! It sounds like you’re finding silver linings even in the cranky-making stuff. Keep going on the novel stuff. 1000 words a day and I ‘m at capacity.
Melanie J´s last blog post..This one time, when I went dinosaur-riding…
I can relate to MANY of your bullet points, but here are two that jumped out at me:
#13. Man, have I been there before… at least twice a week.
#25. I went to homecoming with “Jamie” Dashner in high school. Seriously. :) I’ll send you a picture if you want. Maybe you can use it to replace your wallpaper. (See #15).
Hang in there darlin’… I see lots of bright lights poking through in your bullet list.
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Hang in there girlie! The emails, blog reading, everything can wait. And under NO circumstances are you allowed to delete your blog, you hear me? ‘Cause I’d have to cry a lot, filling the house up with tears and end up with soggy walls.
Ok, that was stupid to say (about the walls). My only excuse is that I’m tired and I had a horrible day. Do you want an 8 year old boy who is trying hard to make his mother insane? Short trip, short trip. But still, please don’t ever delete your blog!
I so admire you for writing that many words, and the month isn’t even half over!
When you feel like you’re about to explode, head outside for a few minutes to clear your thoughts. Something about staring at a computer screen all day, even if it’s a good thing, makes me more depressed than I would usually be. Just go out for a few minutes.
Then give the kids cookies and put them to bed early. That does wonders too.
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#13 is an almost everyday occurrence… sometimes more often than that!
And the Nano is probably contributing a lot more than you know to the overall feeling. Writing that much is exhilarating (and you’re doing GREAT), but the whole system is drained. Imagine how you’ll feel on the 30th! (And by that I mean you’ll start feeling SO wonderful)
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I don’t know why but I love this blog entry. If someone were to start one written just like this I’d get addicted.
oh, that was me btw. :P
You write about the ups and downs and in and outs of your life so beautifully even in point form. You are amazing. Meanwhile mere mortals like me write about —um, boobie-silliness :-) I want to be more like you.
#14 made me smile. Been there.
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Oh! Too many downers in there!! I’m really glad you are enjoying your writing, and hope that that can kind of color the other areas of your life. Keep up the good work, Kim!
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Wait! There’s a fondue season!?
I’m practically giddy!!
JustRandi´s last blog post..Friday Flair - The "When Will She Just Get Over it Already?" Edition
Life is a mess, sometimes, huh? I’m glad you’re able to see all of the good in there, too! Maybe today will be better!!!
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Thank Heavens you didn’t go through with #25! What would I do without my Kym fix for the day?!?
You have a lot of things going on in your life right now, don’t you? I am with you on the piano thing - half of the time I don’t even think about what I am playing. That is a good time to contemplate life.
Do what you need to do right now - EXCEPT delete your blog!
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I love how you always pull optimism out of the hat even when you are feeling icky. That is so inspiring, darling. So much. And wow, are you busy. Big hugs to you! Mwah!
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Kim, you put everything into perspective. I wish you lived closer so that I could give you a big hug!
Miss you!
you didn’t delete your blog in a fit of apathy this morning… I have been there. Don’t do it, the regret would be way more than the apathy.
Your list is so much of what life is - one big constant swirl of goods and bads.
If I’ve only learned one lesson in my life it’s that things that are not ours to control are not ours to fret over. And the things within our control should be handled with much deliberation and care.
Deconstructing Jen´s last blog post..letting her get to me
So i’m the last little anonymous blogger, apparently for some reason, I didn’t show up as me.
So I just thought I’d let you know, I’m now not going to anonymously read your blogs…
It’s a crazy mixed up world for sure. Despite it all, you’re so right that it’s sweet.
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Just called in to tell you how helpful your spinning plates post was - a result I chased up a lot of useful links in the area of organization and blog addiction etc - one above.
Nano’s good, but writing intensively like that can throw mood balance in process. All the best!
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Oh dear! I have just found you through David’s POTD and just in time I think. Take it from an old girl, all this passes. Young mum with young children, and deadlines [I'm assuming as I have no idea what a NANO is that your friends are referring to] Prioritize. You first, because if you are in a state you can’t help your kids. Take a deep beath and look around you, nothing matters but the health and happiness of you and your family. Paint over the wallpaper if it offends you, the kids would love to help.
Don’t ‘think’ so much. By that I mean to let a lot of ’stuff’ whizz by without over analysizing.
You already know what is good in your life, that will never change.
I hope you don’t think that I am over-stepping the mark, but I have the view from this end of life and I know how much agonising I did that caused me mucho agony.
If you can change something, then change it-if not accept it, and save yourself a lot of unhappiness.
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Oh heavens I don’t know why I haven’t been here more often (or even at all?) I have met you so many times at Holly’s and Jo’s. I just love this post. I understand it. Which is always a good start….
Over from David’s - congrats on POTD mention!
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You’re kitchen stayed clean for two weeks? And you’re complaining? WOW. I’d be happy if the kitchen here stayed neat, not necessarily all spiffy clean, but at least neat, for even overnight! Always someone out there it seems, mucking the place up -either that or they’re in the living room, tossing toys about and trashing that room too then! BTW -David sent me -great post!
Enjoyed the read! Congratulations on POTD over at David’s.
I’m with you in the apathetic mood.
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Life, crazy? Yep :) !!
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