Mid-Life Crisis « Temporary? Insanity

Mid-Life Crisis

by Kym on February 17, 2009

I am so going to die young.

Seriously, ever since I turned thirty I’ve had this impending doom sort of feeling. Also a feeling of profound relief because my twenties? Miserable with a capital Mis. Excepting the whole getting married thing…and some of the having two beautiful children experience…okay, so it wasn’t such a bad decade and I’m just a whiner. We knew that.

The past several months have been rather heavy on the deep introspection aspect of life though. And it’s been making me mopey. And discontented. With alternating bursts of near manic optimism just to break it up a bit. I’ve been having to fight urges as well. Urges to buy low cut blouses and fancy shoes and designer this that and the other. Good thing I’m fat (and have a financial conscience) or we’d so be broke right now.

I just haven’t been happy being me. I feel stodgy and boring. My life appears only slightly more sociable than that of your average hermit, and I’ve been yearning to try new things to shatter the monotony of it all.

If that isn’t a mid-life crisis, what is? I’m struggling with my identity too. I’ve changed a lot from who I used to be, and I feel conflicted sometimes. Am I really progressing? Is it good that I got my Victorian stage out of my system and have adopted a warmer, more earthy style? Is it good that I get rather…umm…loud…and talkative at times, instead of sitting quietly just taking everything in the way I used to? Is there a way to shake the self-centredness that overwhelms me sometimes and reclaim some of my prior sweetness?

Some days it hits me whammo-blammo all in one go and mentally I shout at myself, WHO THE HECK ARE YOU? (except I cuss a bit, because I’m not as nice inside my head as I am out of it)

So yeah. Mid-life crisis. I need to figure out a way to postpone this or I’m so going to die at sixty. Maybe from stressing over stupid things like whether or not I’m having a mid-life crisis…

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I like the idea of trying something new. I mean really, really new. Like belly dancing lessons. Or getting a tatoo. Ummm, maybe we should leave those things up to Jenn, but you get the idea;) I have been trying to stretch myself and do some new things, and it is really helping. A lot.
What is something you have always wanted to try, but have been to much of a chicken (bleep) to do? If it’s scary I know you can count on Jenn to do it with you. Me too, for that matter. What do you think?

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by C on February 17, 2009 at 6:59 pm. #

Mmmm…I think the key to a mid-life crisis is that you don’t usually know you are having one. So you are probably safe for now.
We all have our down days, and I think that a majority of people have times where they just aren’t happy in their own skin. This too shall pass.

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by Heffalump on February 17, 2009 at 7:24 pm. #

I’d say you are far too young to be having a mid-life crisis. Quarter-life, maybe.

I think these questions are the ones that demand to be answered, and are answered best by action. The day to day moving forward.

At least that’s what I hope…

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by Lisa Milton on February 17, 2009 at 7:48 pm. #

Does it comfort you to know your not alone in this?

“I just haven’t been happy being me. I feel stodgy and boring. My life appears only slightly more sociable than that of your average hermit, ”

So try new things, get some red high heels and make your man take you out…

Or play dress up with the girls

Or something. But I feel the same way too. And sometimes I look in the mirror and wonder what the heck happened to the 29 year old me’s purpose driven life.

Now I have a laundry driven life.

But…it’s not so bad. I can still play dress up and do the laundry…and I don’t have to go to a job I hate everyday.

by Dapoppins on February 17, 2009 at 8:12 pm. #

I say buy yourself a red convertible just in case. :)

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by Steph @ Diapers and Divinity on February 17, 2009 at 8:45 pm. #

hmmm…. are you me? I have been tempted to buy $1000 worth of clothes online recently… just for a change. and I am busting out of all my clothes.

It’s a shame we don’t have $1000.

We could do a house swap – you move to Australia for the year and I to your place. That should mix things up.

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by Hel on February 17, 2009 at 10:19 pm. #

You’re not fat.

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by LisAway on February 18, 2009 at 12:19 am. #

No dying, please.

And I vote for you buying yourself a first edition of some classic book you adore. I guarantee it will make your year.

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by Melanie J on February 18, 2009 at 12:55 am. #

Oh, my goodness! I was totally going to say try something new and take belly dancing. So apparently that’s 2 for belly dancing. C totally stole my comment. :)

Or some other lesson that you would never picture yourself taking. Ever.

I LOVE my belly dancing class because it’s something totally new AND I get an hour away from my baby to think about who I am and what I do. And I’m surrounded by people who talk like grown ups, which is also cool. And I’m learning how to carry myself better–my instructor is really nice and all about loving the figure you have. I imagine most are…but I don’t know.

Sometimes it just feels good to burst out of who you thought you were and try something new. Nothing too scandalous, mind you, just new.

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by Nancy on February 18, 2009 at 7:22 am. #

I’m going to 3rd the motion regarding belly dance. It’s a ridiculously good work out on top of getting you out of the house and socializing.

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by Thalia's Child on February 18, 2009 at 9:15 am. #

You and me both Sista!
I’m in a rut in a MAJOR way, but I’m not who I used to be (all though, I’d like to find that girl, she was kinda fun) and a lot of the time I’m like WHOA! Who is THIS person? Yeah…

by Abra on February 18, 2009 at 9:58 am. #

I learned in my Adolescent Development class in college that teenagers go through an “identity crisis” of sorts, so maybe you are actually YOUNGER than you thought!! Huh?? :-)

Seriously, I think we all go through this “who am I?” phase and the “I’m in a rut” phase. Or, at least, I do.

by Beth on February 18, 2009 at 10:33 am. #

I had mine at twenty-five so I guess I’m going to die even younger :) Really though, lady. I think your just normal. You may think on things a bit longer than a lot of people, but that’s okay too. You dig a little deeper and that brings you more depth. We have so many different selves to uncover, some more appealing to us than others, but all of them together bring the pieces of the puzzle together. The final missing pieces won’t be put into place until we’re all done here. No matter what each one looks like, they all fit together to make something beautiful.

There. I went and got all metaphorical on you. You’re welcom.

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by Heather of the EO on February 18, 2009 at 12:39 pm. #

My vote is for a new convertible, but I’d make it yellow. But seriously, I think this time of year just sucks. I am ready for Spring, and sunshine, and flowers, and all that stuff that doesn’t happen in the middle of Winter.

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by Amelia on February 18, 2009 at 2:10 pm. #

I really think you should start a book group. It combines delicious reading with enforced social interaction. I’ve started two in my life, and I am the better for both.

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by Novembrance on February 18, 2009 at 3:26 pm. #

I go through life crisis’ all the time. Welcome to the club!

Seriously though I notice I’m particularly prone to loopy behavior in mid winter. Something about the cold and the being stuck in doors a lot… It’s just not good for my stability.

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by Summer on February 18, 2009 at 3:35 pm. #

Please don’t die. Ever.

I think a lot of us can relate to what you’re feeling, and the cold dreary weather only makes it worse, but please take care of yourself, my dear.

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by Jenna Consolo on February 18, 2009 at 5:28 pm. #

Sounds like you need to buy yourself something pretty…. it might really help.

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by MomBabe on February 18, 2009 at 8:50 pm. #

WARNING! Menopause is coming! Menopause is coming! I started having the same feelings in my 30s. Sigh.

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by Mother Mayhem on February 19, 2009 at 5:32 am. #

There are some upsides to a mid-life crisis! Introspection is a good thing, at least to some extent. I feel we have to face and learn to deal with ourselves at some point, and providing we have the love and support to back us up, I’m not sure it matters that you started 15 years before I did. Maybe you’ll finish before I started. I do hope you and I both regain the regular composure we maybe used to have, and shed the mood swings, though there has to be rhythm in life – it’s a defining quality. The comment about digging and deeper is right.

Belly dancing is a freeing-up-plus-enjoying activity, and those are useful short term. Book club may be a longer term idea, deepening one’s mind and relationships. You already have Christianity I think, and that’s an example of a life-central value system that can provide meaning and purpose. Other things like that are Causes. Preferably ones you’ve always held but haven’t followed up on. Some people find that commitments to helping others are valuable too, but I think you’ve got that part of life covered, what with the family and helping people around you.

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by Lemongrass on February 19, 2009 at 2:36 pm. #

Often times I feel like I am regressing in life, BUT that is the little devil whispering in our ears. Flick him off and realize how far in life you have come :) !! (Note to self, practice what you preach.)

And by the way, you are NOT fat!

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by An Ordinary Mom on February 19, 2009 at 5:47 pm. #