Happy?
by Kym on October 30, 2009
I took the bus to my ultrasound appointment this morning. The girl sitting next to me smelled like noodles and I don’t know why, but that realization had me dangerously close to giggling. And now I want to write a novel in the first person point of view just so the first line can be, “The girl sitting next to me smells like noodles.” I mean, come on, if you read that your curiousity would be totally revved up, right?
So I saw Claira on the screen this morning and good grief is she cute. She has big squishy gerber-baby cheeks and I felt this upswelling of delight at the thought that soon, soon I’ll be able to touch them. I also struggled not to laugh at the sight of her chubby face smooshed up against the side of the womb. She’s lying sideways right now and is seriously running out of room. Good thing we’re getting her out early or else I’m sure I’d soon have the permanent imprint of her toes in my spleen.
I’ve been really…well…happy lately. And honestly? I’m starting to annoy myself. I think I spent so much of my life cultivating the whole brooding/melancholy attitude that it’s kind of hard to shake it off for any amount of time. There’s a little voice in the back of my head (a cynical, caustic sort of voice) telling me that I look like an idiot when I grin. That when I’m cheerful I’m annoying and when I’m happy…well, perhaps I’d better not get used to it because it probably won’t last long. So yeah, happiness levels climbing. Happiness acceptance levels? Lagging a wee bit behind.
Ah well, once the newborn-induced sleep deprivation kicks in I’ll be back to square one anyway!
Have a HAPPY day!
16 comments
You’re hilarious! I have to say happy beats brooding melancholy any day of the week. I’d rather die of laughter than die of grief.
Me and that old guy on Mary Poppins.
by Eowyn on October 30, 2009 at 6:08 am. #
You are SO not annoying when you’re happy! (silly girl)
by Heidi Ashworth on October 30, 2009 at 6:29 am. #
I think I frequently annoy people with my perpetual happiness. (One mission companion, in particular) :)
by charrette on October 30, 2009 at 7:29 am. #
If only you could bottle happiness and store it up against those future sleep-deprived days. Enjoy it it fully!
by Mrs. Organic on October 30, 2009 at 8:22 am. #
I agree that noodle-line would sound good in a book. :-)
How great you got to see cute little Claira! Not much longer!!
And I think you should tell that annoyed part of yourself to stuff it! I have yet to meet a person who looks worse smiling than when they don’t, so that’s just wrong. I think you should embrace the happiness! Sure, it comes and goes, but I’d like to think that we all could be happy most of the time, with what we know and all we’re blessed with .. couldn’t we??
by Beth on October 30, 2009 at 8:42 am. #
Thank you.. I will. I love that…she smelled like noodles! Ha!
by warmchocmilk on October 30, 2009 at 8:58 am. #
Love the Albright quote! I am happy you are happy. I may have to blog about this same topic.
Pinch little Claira’s chubby cheeks for me. You know… mentally for now.
by Kazzy on October 30, 2009 at 5:34 pm. #
I also seem to have that feeling that if I’m happy for too long, there’s something wrong. Ignore that little voice in your head and trust me–LOVE this moment and be SO happy because you deserve it. You bring me so much happiness. You bring so much joy. It only stands to reason that you should get some of that back.
So, so glad baby Claira is happy, healthy, and cute to boot!
by L.T. Elliot on October 30, 2009 at 7:09 pm. #
Enjoy it! Live up the happy feeling and love it… like you said, soon you’ll be up late in the night :)
Glad you’re doing well feeling good!!
by Melissa on October 30, 2009 at 9:33 pm. #
Happy post! Glad things are on the up and up with you. It will give you that push through until your beautiful baby girl is in your arms. Soon enough.
PS: a girl that smelled like noodles?! I’d read your book for sure!!
by Terresa Wellborn on October 30, 2009 at 10:33 pm. #
I am so excited for you, and every update makes me smile and get impatient for Claira to get here already. If I’m feeling like that, I imagine your excitement to see her and hold her and love on her must be exponentially greater. I can’t wait to come back here and read that she is here and charming everyone around her!
by Sara on October 31, 2009 at 1:40 pm. #
If you can’t find a place for the noodle line, I’ll use it (and give you all the credit, natch). I’m glad you’re having a happy time… Let it last!
by Becca on October 31, 2009 at 5:02 pm. #
Happy is good.
So glad you got to see Claira and I love the noodle line. You must use that sometime.
by VirtualSprite on November 1, 2009 at 7:11 pm. #
Happiness looks lovely on you, as it does for most people. Hurry and take a big, ol’ smiling profile pic before the feeling goes away. :)
by Stephanie on November 2, 2009 at 6:55 am. #
You are beautiful when you smile. So glad things are going well. Can’t wait to see pictures of Claira and those beautiful chubby cheeks!
by Jaina on November 2, 2009 at 2:19 pm. #
Your happiness is contagious :) !! I am grinning with you!
by An Ordinary Mom on November 6, 2009 at 12:47 pm. #