Thanks for the sweet comments today. I felt almost guilty while reading them because I already felt so much better, just for having put everything into words. That’s how my mind (sort of) works. It’s like the words pin down the negative emotions somewhere outside of myself and suddenly I can breathe again. I can see that, rational or irrational, the odds of everything I fear actually happening are pretty dang small.
And really, there’s a lot to be hopeful about right now. I can see that. And I can laugh a little at my fears even as I acknowledge them. In a way, I’m even glad of them. Glad of the dark places that give shape to the light. Glad of the despair that reminds me why I strive to be a woman of faith. Glad of friends who encourage and inspire me in that endeavor.
Sunday’s post suddenly rings very, very true. You all really are miracles.
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Dear One,
I believe you. You sound better!
And you sound a bit like Father Lehi the way you’re seeing the necessary aspect of darkness and difficulty and despair in order to make way for true joy.
I’m so glad you’re being blessed.
It takes all kinds of day to make a life. Let it come.
How are you holding up? The Countdown to Claira?
I loved kazzy’s comment. “It takes all kinds of day to make a life.”
Kim, I love your posts–whether happy or sad–because they make me feel understood, not alone, and full of hope. You give hope so much more than you think. You save me with your words, over and over again.
I’m so glad you’re feeling better. *hugs*
i too am “glad of the dark places that give shape to the light”…though i can’t normally frame my gratitude in such poetic terms. :) i’m also glad your fears have eased, because if i know you at all, i’d say you will not just be fine, you’ll be wonderful. at the hospitalization, the birth, the bringing claira home, the mothering of three precious girls…you’ll absolutely rock.
… bless our Kim…
I’m so glad we had the chance to meet at LDS Storymaker’s this past year. You really seem like a great gal! I’m glad you are better!
I love how you put that!
“It’s like the words pin down the negative emotions somewhere outside of myself and suddenly I can breathe again.”
This is so true for me as well. I tend to work myself into a panic internally, but if I calm down a moment and get it out, things get better pretty quickly.
I really do think there is something amazing about being able to express our fears…having the strength to. Somehow it eases the pressure of it all. What a gift to have all of these loving supportive people here to cradle those parts of you that need it. If you need to talk don’t hesitate to call! I’m home all day today…mastitis ((sigh)).
xoxo
It’s always amazing when we are able to conquer our fears and can look back.
I’m so glad that words provide such an excellent outlet for you, what a neat gift.
You are awesome! I’m glad you are feeling better and doing now.
Done list baby!
Hooray for feeling better!